All posts in November 2015

Thankful for what?

Hello Metalheads,

Seeing as tomorrow is Thanksgiving, I thought a new post was in order. I am feeling so strong and so great right now, as I am in that beautiful two week window I get each month where I feel almost no residual effects of the chemotherapy. My body is getting stronger each day, until I hammer her again with another round of poison starting December 8th. A very important scan is happening one week from today, a scan that will determine if this chemotherapy treatment is working. I am attempting to stay positive over the next week in hopes that the scan shows shrinkage of the overall cancer inhabiting my brain.

Going into this big scan, I am focusing on what I’m going to do regardless of the outcome. So, what am I thankful for?

I’m thankful that we live in a country where there is medical care as great as the care I’ve received. I’m thankful to have my parents, siblings, and family and friends by my side every step of the way. I’m thankful that I have a father who took the time – and money – and energy – and will – to start this non profit organization that I hope will help improve people’s lives. I’m thankful that I have the ability to live where I want, in a place that I want, and ride my bike when the weather is nice. I can work at a job that I am starting to love (as I’m getting more comfortable) and that I am starting to see success in my career, something that’s always been very important to me.

I’m not thankful for the cancer. I hate it. But seeing as there’s no getting rid of it, I’m thankful that it’s given me a larger purpose. I feel obligated to help other people suffering, and I’m focused on making that happen for the remainder of my life. Getting my health on track is my priority, followed by continuing my career, helping others, and living as much as I possibly can. There are 2 or 3 people in my life right now that have recently lost loved ones to cancer, or are about to – and it’s horrendous. I am so lucky beyond words to not be looking death in the face, as some are.

Regardless of this scan’s outcome, I must push forward with the treatment. If nothing has changed after 7 months, it will be difficult for me to keep going with this nasty stuff but I have to find the will, in hopes that my body just needs more in order for it to work. I hope everyone has a GREAT day tomorrow, and I encourage you all to really reflect on what’s important to you, and what makes your life worth living!